This is an article that I wrote for submission to a magazine, but I honestly don't know where this work belongs. Any ideas?


An excerpt from: ABC News  on the topic of the new menstrual-suppressing pill recently approved by the FDA:

The new pill represents new options for women in defining their own identities, said Stuart Michaels, assistant director of the Center for Gender Studies at the University of Chicago. And the term "natural" is defined by cultural values, not biology, he said.

"What is natural is not a simple and absolute determination," said Michaels. "One woman might take the pill ... because it has certain benefits in preventing pregnancy, and she may or may not have any doubts about her femininity. Someone else might choose to do this because she doesn't want to menstruate because it makes her feel unfeminine," he said. "It's all about how people experience their own body and think about what it means to be a man or woman."

Hmmmm. The above definition of "natural" did not resonate with me so I looked it up in the Oxford dictionary.

natural |ˈna ch ərəl| |ˌnøtʃ(ə)rəl| |ˌnatʃ(ə)r(ə)l|
adjective
1 existing in or caused by nature; not made or caused by humankind


The term "natural" is not, in fact, defined by cultural values. Natural, or Nature, is defined by the Creator. Regardless of the human name, definitions or roles that we may assign to this universal force, Creator is an actual presence that we can witness through our physical and spiritual senses through the simple act of taking a walk in nature; it is an actual presence that could never be reduced to a word or symbolic image generated by "cultural values". Our bodies are actual as well. They are made of the same substances as the soil of the Earth - of everything created long before man came on the scene and invented "cultural", or "conditioned" values.

As women we have the physical evidence that we are connected to something greater through the monthly rhythms of the moon and Earth - which are tied to the greater rhythms of the universe - whether we choose to be aware of it or not. This is a natural gift that is freely given to us at birth - simply because we were born female. Of course we cannot see it as a gift when we've invested all of our attention and energy in the pursuit of a man-made, there's-not-enough-for-everyone reality show - a 'show' where masculine qualities are more highly valued, supported, and encouraged.  There is nothing inherently wrong with masculine energy; it is a necessary presence and energy for directing, building, and working with the creative force, but it was never intended to go solo. It is becoming increasingly obvious in our world that without the balance and equality of the feminine heart and compassion we will remain fragmented personas - male or female - navigating a fragmented world.

I agree with the above quotation that women have options in defining their own identities, but choosing which god or source to identify with is the real choice here - regardless of gender. Shall we continue to identify with the world created from centuries of specialized de-sensitivity and de-value-the-body training?  This manmade world is a virtual world where as much as we love to think about living happy and pain-free lives, the inherent instability of this disconnected, fragmented foundation cannot help but perpetuate disconnected, fragmented lives. Citizens of this world are taught to deny their feelings; their femininity; the very nature that connects them to all that is life-affirming and natural. And sadly, this choice only serves to exacerbate these man-made cycles of pain, limitation and fear.

The other option is to begin to courageously identify with the larger rhythms of LIFE, both within and without. What would happen if we as individuals began to take responsibility for our our own bodies and feelings? What would happen if we made the choice to be informed by something greater? To want to know the rest of the story; recall the rest of ourselves, and break the cycle of sickness and limitation that only seems to feed and profit the ones who invent, manufacture, and distribute the latest synthetic "cures" for it. Understand that I too have been on the receiving end of the miracle of science - through meds and services that have helped me to live more comfortably in this world - and for that I am very grateful. But I feel that the ultimate "cure" for the pain and suffering of the world is in healing the heart. The heart is our own personal receiver for all that we need to know to meet our needs, and all that we need to know to live ecstatic, harmonious lives in sync with the Earth and all benevolent life.

Let's be honest here, we've made some pretty amazing technological advances - some benevolent and some not, but how much progress have we made in the realm of human nature? We needn't look far to see the detrimental effects that this one-sided mindset has had on our most grand representative of the feminine - Mother Earth herself. Ladies and gentlemen, whether you are conscious of it or not, YOU are connected to Mother Earth. Tornadoes, hurricanes, fires, and earthquakes inform us - quite loudly at times - that we too are a part of the natural world and our bodies and feelings are definitely affected by her movements. Sorry, no pill to suppress that.

In my opinion the feminine frequency, along with our willingness to presently embody this universal juice of creation, is the only hope for our evolution and survival on Earth. Whether to have a period or not might seem like a no brainer for the women who are busy competing in the virtual world of the masculine. Perhaps they were informed by their conditioning that this monthly magic is a sign of weakness, a bother, a mess - literally a big red flag that says, "I'm not one of the boys". I wonder then, should we also consider medicating our trees to stop the annoying mess and inconvenience of their deciduous nature? ...just a thought. I would venture to guess that women who feel at home with their feminine nature will more than likely feel unnerved with the idea of suppressing these natural movements of the body. Maybe these women are able to love and accept their bodies for the gifts that they are - not as an object to be used and consumed like the rest of the natural world - but as an equal partner and ally in her experience of life on Earth. I have been fortunate to know a few women here who have not been de-senstized to their instinctive, intuitive, compassionate, unifying nature, and they are truly powerful beings. This is a power that appears to be one of the best kept secrets in modern civilization, by the way - stifled and suppressed, this balanced feminine presence is considered bothersome and inconvenient to the centuries old masculine agenda on the planet. But don't think for a minute that I'm blaming the men here.


Yes, women have a choice in how they identify with their bodies and the natural world, as do men. With women though, there is the blessing of a built-in monthly reminder that they are connected to something larger - a reminder that we are full fledged, card carrying citizens of the real world. (For god's sake, someone has to remember our connection to the real world!) In all compassion, I realize that some women do not experience menstruation, pregnancy, and giving birth for reasons beyond their understanding or control, but willful suppression of this natural cycle feels like an act of submission to an ideology that is built upon image, projection, and a sort of unchallenged agreement that we are somehow disconnected from All of Creation. It is in this act of submission to human ideology that we join the ranks of the billions of disembodied, ghost-like humans that wander this Earth. Statistics show that annually there are 19 million in the USA alone who are depressed and confused about who they are; where they are; why they are; because they are connected to nothing real, nothing actual. In my experience, symptoms of pain, depression, and illness are like natural disasters bearing down on the inside - wanting you to move, to flow, to heal, to hear, to see that there is more to you and the world that meets the fragmented eye.

I suppose I am one of those women that was literally worn down from my "cultural, or conditioned values". Instead of treating depression, illness (and monthly periods for that matter) as a disease and simply taking a never-ending cycle of pills to fix or mask those bothersome symptoms, my intuition told me that something greater wanted to be present in my consciousness - and consciousness does include the body. Our hearts and bodies are screaming more loudly than ever now. Why? Because there is a beautiful message under all of this human pain and discomfort, and we have to want to hear it. I know, because out of desperation I asked this "something greater" to help me, to inform me. I just knew that I would die if I couldn't find a better way to live. Thankfully 'IT' responded. It took a great deal of disciplined effort on my part to learn how to "see", "hear", and feel alive again - like a desert plant following a restorative downpour of liquid love - but it was worth every minute. I don't experience depression anymore, simply because I learned how to connect and give passage to my true; my creative; my feminine nature in this world.

"It's all about how people experience their own body and think about what it means to be a man or woman."

I don't have to sit down and "think about what it means to be a man or a woman" in the context of a conditioned or lopsided world. I can get up and go for a walk in the real world; work in the garden, write a song, help a friend, and have a monthly period to remember that I am connected to something wholly outside of this predominantly mental context in which we've been residing. These feeling activities connect me to the feminine - the force that sustains my body and spirit on Earth and I am blessed to feel this larger sense of life in my very own body as it demonstrates the rhythm and balance of a greater cycle and season. Sure, sometimes there is pain, but I find that pain is almost always resistance to something larger that wants to guide me in restoring my body to a way of life that is ultimately founded on wholeness - not to just accept another temporary fix of a symptom so  that I can hurry up and get back in the game.

I am but one voice, and my voice says that humanity cannot afford to take one more step in the direction of suppressing the feminine, or medicating ourselves in order to fit into an insane world. Haven't we gone far enough? As for me, I am here to actually live... a whole and balanced life, and my life is about encouraging and supporting others to do the same. And sure, I'll take meds if I need a little help in climbing out of this lopsided world, but never to help me blindly stay.

I had a lucid dream about a year ago. I was watching the sea and these dolphins and whales surfaced. They tried to get my attention and I didn’t understand what they were trying to say, so they said it in music. I immediately understood the message when they gave it to me in a song. It was far too beautiful for me to recreate exactly, so I just did the best I could. Upon awakening, I immediately went to the piano and got the melody and feeling down. I just came across it today and elaborated on it a bit more. One day I’ll finish it. What do you feel the dolphin’s message is?
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Originally posted 9/9/06 on my other blog, "Grokking God".

It occurred to me in my communion state this morning that my own definition of Love needed to be clarified. I write about it a lot, and I want to be sure that I am making myself as clear as possible. You may notice that I capitalize this word when I write of it in the grander sense. I'm talking so grand that it took me a lifetime to be able to embody it to the degree that I do. I couldn't tell you where I'm at on humanity's official Universal Scale of Embodied Love, but I know that I'm 'holding my own' as they say. The Love I speak of isn't just 'nice'... it's full-on kick-ass.

Here is where I find that the biggest misconception occurs. When spiritual, new-age type people say, "Hey, let's all just live together in peace, love and harmony", the rational mind can come up with all kinds of reasons to reject that because the words feel weak and ungrounded. I agree, it does feel ungrounded most of the time that I hear it too, and the term 'weakness' is simply a translation from a feeling that something is missing... or not fully present and available. It's true. Love must be grounded or embodied in order for that kind of kick-ass power to be directed into this world.

What does embodied Love feel like? Well from my vantage point today I can say that it is pure ecstasy, knowing wisdom, strength, freedom, peace. But it didn't always feel like that. Have you ever felt pain and all-out terror when Love comes a calling? Unless you have shouted out and begged for mercy because it's too much, I would venture to say that you have not yet been introduced to the kind of Love that I refer to when I say LOVE. It is not an experience that you want to invite unless you are truly committed to giving up all that you think you are, know, want, believe, etc., and trade it all in for total conscious connection with ALL THAT IS - indescribable Beauty, Power, Abundance and Grace right HERE... at your fingertips. But you must be advised, this kind of Love is here to destroy all that is NOT in alignment with Total Peace and Balance, and will, if allowed, completely transform you into - not the word "love" - but the experience of LOVE. In other words, you might have the intellectual capacity to deliver a brilliant speech about love or even LOVE, but you'll know right where you are on the universal scale of embodied Love when one tiny little gram of THIS is introduced into your physical, feeling body. Either you'll run screaming and begging to be returned to the 'comfortably numb' state, or you'll muster up the courage to continue with what was introduced to me so many years ago as the 'stretching exercises' - exercises that I guess I agreed to before this life, because that's been the program folks.

One aspect of this 'program' that I have written more about on my other blog site, "What I Know by Heart", is that in this life, for reasons I understand a whole lot more now about than I ever did back then, I have kept myself quite naive to the ways of the world. While I am a very enthusiastic supporter of education, my own scholarly ventures ended after two years of college - and even that 'information' has not really been retained. The only intellectual knowledge that is available to me now is that which is applicable in the moment that I need it. That's it. It's there when I truly need it, and no other time. Present moment existence is like that. I know what I need to know when I need to know it, which I have found frees one up to really KNOW - to feel and perceive the spaces in between all of the letters, words, and 'stories' of this world.

I remember years ago when I stumbled upon a verse from Rilke's "Duino Elegies". I cannot tell you how relieved I was to find someone whom I could relate to when it comes to the 'terror' of Love.

Excerpt from Elegy 1.

"Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels' hierarchies?
and even if one of them pressed me suddenly against his heart:
I would be consumed in that overwhelming existence.
For beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror, which we are still just
able to endure,
and we are so awed because it serenely disdains to annihilate us.
Every angel is terrifying.
And so I hold myself back and swallow the call-note of my dark sobbing.
Ah, whom can we ever turn to in our need?
Not angels, not humans, and already the knowing animals are aware
that we are not really at home in our interpreted world."

Rainer Maria Rilke, (read "Duino Elegies 1st & 2nd" in its entirety)

Ah yes, "...it serenely disdains to annihilate us." Thank you Rilke. I truly could not have said it better. The entire poem is a real gift. It was like an oasis to me when I came upon it on my desert journey a few decades ago. I eventually glued it to my keyboard so that every time I sang out my melodies and words - even if the audience was convinced that I was singing about my latest boyfriend - I knew differently.

The stretching exercises still come, although they don't fall so much under the header of 'unbearable'. I am able to welcome it, trust it, and fall into the bliss of it more readily. Yet in the closing of the stretch, I am still taken to that dis-comfort zone of 'this far and no farther'. While I do find myself looking forward to the next - excited to take it on and take it in - these days it seems to be more about the practice of being IT in the world... between the stretchings. I smile when I think back about how I used to curse the 'program' - obviously not in understanding of what was happening to me. As difficult as it all was, I am now able to see it as having been a beautiful blessing. I have been informed by Love that this is my life's work. After all of this training and stretching, I am able to help others embrace and embody this kind of Love now. I have noticed though, there are not many standing in line for this. Which means that a) everybody is already there, or b) I'm terrible at marketing (proven track record here), or c) quite possibly people are not excruciatingly uncomfortable enough with the way things are, and somehow, through sheer will they're still able to make it all work. If that's the case, why on Earth would you want to invite the destroyer version of LOVE into your life?

So I suppose this is an addendum to my previous post, "2012?...". LOVE is total ecstasy if it has a unified, welcoming consciousness and body to be present with. In a few year's time, if you have not already lost your mind and your human identity, and surrendered to the experience of the Larger YOU, this degree of Love will more than likely be terrifying. And until we embody at least some degree of this Love, we simply cannot create a successful Loving, Peaceful, Harmonious way of life in the "interpreted world". Wanting to change the world into a peaceful one without first welcoming the Divine Roto-Rooter into your own heart is like a politician saying he's for cleaning up the environment but no one is ever invited into his house because the sewer is backed up and the whole place is full of shit! ... or something like that. You get my drift. If you can't embody IT, than how on Earth can you direct it or create with it or be given the responsibility to do so? Even nice sounding words and intentions can be a defense or distraction against the inevitable embodiment of Love.

Like many others on this planet, I have been gifted with visions. I see it. I feel it. I know it... we are all going to be stretched to receive more. Ready or not.

"All I am saying"... (everybody all together now) ..." is give PEACE (and kick-ass LOVE) a chance" ... in YOU! And guess what? When this happens, we won't be talking about changing the world anymore. Poof! Magic! It's done!

I am preparing to be on the road for about a month as I travel to the Mainland to record my new music. I will stay in California a few short days and then on to New Mexico.

My plan is to document the recording process through a series of video posts (vlogs). My producer, Larry Mitchell, is the one who recommended that I do this. Seems like an awful lot of tech stuff to think about while I'm in the "heart zone" for singing/playing my music, but I'm certainly up for trying. Between the two of us I'm sure we'll manage something.

I'm also continuing to ask for all of the resources that I need to complete this project, i.e. actually demonstrating the creation and manifestation techniques that I have written about on my blogs. This is perhaps the furthest I have "stuck my neck out" ever... trusting in and applying what I have been shown and given in visions and ecstatic states. I don't have a "day job". I decided awhile back that my only job was to be who I am, and that I would be provided for by Grace. Indeed I have been blessed. I guess you could say that I'm doing my part in "breaking the spell" that keeps humanity feeling stuck and limited in the world as we have known it. I believe in... wait. I know that it is possible to be fully alive and fully supported for being who I am in this world. I have demonstrated these principles in the past; therefore, I know that it IS happening.

After the recordings are complete, my work is to travel and sing-speak-demonstrate the feminine healing frequency to any who are drawn to the sound of empowerment and inspiration. My working title for the project is, "Kundalini Chronicles", as all of this music is born from what I know to be our natural ecstatic state - not from the Eastern perspective, but rather from a Western girl who experienced it first and then found out later what "IT" was called. After two previous CDs, mostly filled with a spiritual longing for the return of what I had been touched by, my 3rd CD is from the view of being, embracing, and celebrating both my humanity and Divinity - woven into a dialog that succeeds in bridging and resolving this inner masculine/feminine split.

In my recent incarnation as a performing singer-songwriter I was too afraid to break out of the mold of what was expected of me within that role. I am no longer confined by that role now. I am a mystic and a musical artist in real time. I do not "perform"; I create and sing music from the heart, in the present moment. I feel that as long as I am on Earth I will do this. And whether I have an audience or not, I choose to be and sing, Love.

To be continued in February, from Santa Fe, New Mexico...

P.S... My story (short version) was published in Kindred Spirit Magazine (Jan/Feb '07). It's entitled, "The Divine Feminine: A Cosmic Love Affair". Interesting to note though, I have rarely referred to it as "Kundalini". I'm not very big on existing labels. I prefer to find other more 'feeling' ways to describe my experiences so that the intellect cannot quickly grab onto a familiar word and throw it into a box.

I made a little amateur music video the other day from some footage I took on a walk through Waikiki (Hawaii). I then added one of my new songs to it. The song is slated to be professionally recorded next month. I use Garageband to compose and iMovie to put put all the pieces together. It looks great on my computer, but after uploading to Youtube both audio and visual lose a significant amount of quality and crispness. Ah well, I'm sure you can use your imagination. You're Zaadsters  after all!

It was Jo who threw the net 'round and tagged me "it". The assignment is to list "five things that you probably don't know about me". This is difficult. I am more than an open book lately with blogging and print... so that means I'm full-on exposing myself here. Which reminds me...

1. When I was a toddler I despised clothing. Any chance I got I'd tear it off and run out of the house and down the street. My parents were very concerned about this behavior. It's a wonder I survived childhood. Don't worry, I've been conditioned rather well and have learned to keep my pants on in public.

2. I love Las Vegas and I'm pretty good at "feeling" the slots that are about to spit the $$$ out. I have to be alone though, otherwise I go into "thinking" to be able to chit-chat with words. I have to stay with my instincts to hear/feel/see/know... and win. I go about once a year, and I don't play anything but slots. In the past, I have been judged by  "spiritual" people for my love of Las Vegas. I try to tell them that everything is spiritual. Even Las Vegas.

3. 12 years ago I was a multi-millionaire for about 8 months. It was fun while it lasted. Then the company that I held stock in was sued and well... the rest is history. Today I have very few possessions. I gave the last of my 'stuff' away about a year ago and I really do live in the moment now. Life is one miracle after another.

4. I initiated as a Mayan Priest(ess) in Tikal. For reasons that would be a whole blog post on its own, I chose not to practice as one in the world. The wisdom was integrated into my shamanistic "bag of tools".

5. I like to cave. Bright lights hurt my eyes. It's no wonder, because speaking of Mayan things, my Glyph is "Akabal" - the bat. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only resident in Hawaii that has white skin. I'm thankful for the tourists from Iowa. I'm just one shade darker than them on the 'blinding-white scale'.

I have tagged 5 others. You can run but you can't hide...  Michael, Jonathan, David, Marcya, and My-Head Michael.

I am currently writing a rather lengthy article on "Harmonic Entrainment to the God Frequency" for submission to a magazine publication in the near future. I made reference to this phrase at the end of one of my previous articles (January '07 publication) and felt a need to elaborate on the topic further in a follow-up article. I wanted to post a few of the themes running throughout this next article here.

The information I receive comes from outside the boundaries of what is already known within my intellect and then I actively translate it. Sometimes I refer to this as "Feminine Wisdom", or being "Informed by Love", or the "Core" of our being. Translation for me occurs in the form of music, lyrics, healing energy, words, and sometimes illustrative charts for the printed page. Some have called this "channeling", and it's OK with me to call it channeling - but secretly I wish I could offer a software upgrade to the collective thinking mind to allow a more relaxed definition of this intuitive activity. We could call it "art" - the more safe and acceptable container for such extra-curricular activities in our culture. Whatever you want to call it is fine with me. Names and labels have no effect on the actual experience of something. Anyhow, I'm sure many of you can relate by having experienced a desperate attempt to translate the essence of something - something that lives beyond words - to something that the rest of us can taste, touch, see, feel or hear. Not always an easy task when the conditioned mind gets in the way.

I keep doing what I'm doing, art and/or channeling, and freely offer what I receive in order to make my contribution to the benevolent shift in consciousness that we are all in the midst of. Some of us are consciously riding this wave and others have chosen to believe in more of the "WYSIWYG" (what you see is what you get) approach to life. There is no right or wrong way. I say that if whatever you are doing is honestly working for you, then there's no need to fix it, right? (Just remember that "honestly" is the operative word here.)

I happened upon "Entrainment to the God Frequency" purely by accident. This was a phrase given to me upon resurfacing from a dream state a few months back. My first memory of feeling entrained in this way was when I was around 10 years old, although at the time I had no name for it. Back then I had this enormous passion to sing but couldn't carry a tune. Literally, any spare moment was dedicated to singing and learning to play the piano. I had no lessons available to me from a professional, so gradually over time I noticed that a Spirit voice coach was teaching me and making suggestions on vocal exercises that always seemed to have built-in life lessons as well. Entrainment occurred when I would land on a note that would take it from "me" singing the note, to something far beyond my concept of me. This was something so beautiful and so loving, and "IT" was singing the note through me. Now you might think, "Oh, how nice." Understand that when I say "beautiful" and "loving"... yes it was that, but then bump that up to the 10th power. In this frequency there is no holding onto any concept of what you have experienced or once believed as "loving" in your everyday life. There isn't even a "you" anymore. I could only hold the note for a moment because the frequency was too gigantic, too much for my body to contain. So my physical body would then convulse in a way, and I would have to weep in order to release what felt like a cosmic truckload of Love that I was convinced had taken a wrong turn into me!

Later I found that this childhood dose had only been the beginning... only a feather touch of the Divine that even at this young age had caused a complete shattering of any newly-formulating idea of who or what I thought I was, or was going to be. I learned pretty early on that resisting this level of Love could feel quite painful. So the "training" over the years, if you will, seemed to be that of stretching to accommodate more and more it and for longer periods of time.

At 10 years of age I was still very much in that wonderfully honest, innocent, feeling place in life. I did mention the phenomenon to my mother at one point, and let's just suffice it to say that after that I never mentioned it again. And this was a religious woman! Sadly, I learned very quickly not to speak of such things out loud to others. So I kept my random ecstatic sound experiences to myself. It came in other ways too, but we'll stick with the voice-oriented phenomenon for this post. I can also recall very long dry spells from this ecstasy throughout my life, but I never forgot that beacon of frequency - that marker of all markers for Love. Why? Because I had felt it in my physical body. It was embedded in me there. All of this made for a difficult life in many ways - forgetting that frequency (which translates to entrainment to the conditioned view), remembering (entrainment to God), and forgetting again - but thankfully that frequency never forgot me. Just when I would lose all hope and give voice to my despair, crying out, begging for something greater to deliver me from the vice I had placed myself within, "IT" would return.

So it was years later I discovered that this "Entrainment to the God Frequency" can occur while speaking (or shouting) feelings out loud as well. Certainly this was not directed at anyone. This was between me, myself, and I. And it was here I noticed that my physical body would give me the "clues" as to whether I was being honest with what I was saying or not. Very simply put, when you are being as honest with yourself as possible - which is a natural state of innocence - you begin to entrain yourself to the God Frequency. The more you speak the truth, the more the mask or image of yourself begins to fade, whereby inviting more of your True Identity, your Source, your Core Self, to be present in your everyday consciousness. In being honest about your feelings, you are literally opening the doors and practicing the embodiment of the God Frequency. I suppose one could even say that in speaking honestly, or from the heart, we are literally "talking our-selves into the Truth of who we are". Incidentally, it is only then that we can even begin to be fully honest and fully present with others in our lives, but that is another whole article... or book!

So why are we so conditioned to fear our feeling nature here on Earth? Because somehow we know, deep down inside, that feeling and giving voice to our "bad" feelings creates a movement and healing that will eventually open the floodgates of Love. Are we ready for that? I'd like to remind you of that great quote about "our deepest fear" in Marianne Williamson's book "A Return to Love", that was also used in Nelson Mandela's 1994 Inaugural Speech. I've encountered it hundreds of times over the years and I never get tired of it... due to the fact that my body gives me the warm honey feeling in my heart and solar plexus area when I read it - a proven indication that it is true.

 

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

People say that they want to have experiences of God, that they want to be "enlightened" and "one with the Source". Just know that it may be very different from what you "think" it is, and hold on to your hats for the day that the God Frequency just lightly reaches in and touches you - providing you with a "felt sense" of Creation. Nobody, but nobody can fully prepare you for this. Rather, they can only offer their own experiences that may possibly inspire you to invite "IT" in for yourself. I have been entraining my self to the SELF over the course of my entire life - not because I set out to do it, but because somehow, for some reason, these spontaneous God-Frequency "drop-in reminders" just happened to me over and over again. Understand that when something like this occurs, you can go one of two ways - completely mad or make a determined effort to integrate it. I do notice progress in being able to carry greater degrees of the God Frequency in my body and being, and the "talking myself into it" part gets shorter and shorter in duration, but it truly is a never-ending series of stretching exercises with no goal or end in sight. It's been my secret up until now, not because I wanted to keep it from anyone, but because I had no words for it, and no obvious audience. Something has changed over the past year. Perhaps my translating skills have improved, I don't know, and frankly I don't need to know.

I'm writing this just a few days away from Christmas - the celebration of of the birth of Christ. Some of Jesus' messages have come through the Bible pretty accurately and they are quite beautiful and inspiring. I know this because of my body's feeling indicators, not because any preacher-man said I should "believe it or burn in hell". I honestly know that Jesus was present on Earth to help "change our minds" from fear to Love; from smallness to Grandness; from lies to Truth. He was one of many teachers to come and demonstrate these empowering Life principles; to inspire us to invite and integrate the God Frequency into our own conscious awareness on Earth. Then came religion... (What the *&@# happened there?)

Never mind that for now. "We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone" (excerpt from the above quote). Therefore, this Christmas I shall be celebrating the birth of this Christ-Light-Glory in you and I, and every human being on this gorgeous planet we call Home.

powered by ODEO OK. So I decided that I would get very ambitious and figure out how to share my musical poetry on my blog. It takes longer for me to figure out techie things (like putting an audio player on my blog) than it does to write a song! I managed to embed the audio player thanks to J.K. and his random act of kindness! Thank you to C4Chaos for his very helpful 'embed media' post. I was completely lost without you guys!

This is what I've been working on for the past few days. I use my beloved GarageBand software on my Mac Powerbook. It's a wonderful tool for me to get my ideas down - then when the big bucks start rolling in I'll head on over to a real studio to work with the professionals. ;-)

It's called, "What'll You Do With Me?". The clip above begins at the second verse and flows through the bridge and part of the end. I wrote down the words in poetry form as they landed in my consciousness a few weeks ago, and then it just sat there. These kinds of poems are in a category all their own. It seems to be coming from the perspective of the Goddess (if you will). I had forgotten about it until I 'heard' some music that seemed to want to 'marry' the words. It's sort of a backwards way of writing a song, but I've learned to go with it.

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I used to be so good at being human,
Now I'm failing miserably.
What is being human?
My entire life
Is a testament to
Finding,
And living,
In greater ways.
Every single day
I did beg,
To be inspired by something,
Or someone,
Who would own,
What he proclaimed.
But haven't you noticed?
Beggars seem to be asking
For something more
Than a little change.
Giving up on neediness
Brings cosmic loads of gold,
And a heavenly sort of fame.
Yet a life out of context
Renders you unknown,
On the fringe of time,
Where God and angels roam.
Here you have no face to save
And you have no faith to lose!
So be one of those --
A bringer of Truth.
Carry the golden angel
Home.

Thank you to Tsjeu for use of the Lunaria photo.

Can we honestly think anything?

HONEST comes via Old French honeste, from Latin honestas, from honestus. From it, English acquired honesty, whose application to the plants of the genus Lunaria was inspired by their nearly-transparent seedpods. [From the "The Dictionary of Word Origins", John Ayto]

So here we see that honesty is about transparency of our seedpods - hiding nothing. Sounds kind of like the guy who got caught with his shorts down... and I'm sure when it comes to total honesty, it may feel that way to a lot of people! Thinking is an intellectual activity - by its very nature disconnected from the deeper touch-feel-know. Maybe that's why so much of the time we feel that we live in two worlds - one is work or business, the other is home and family. One is lived primarily in the intellect; the other is (hopefully) in the heart. In the realm of the intellect it's just easier to lie, or fool ourselves and others into 'buying' something that really isn't for us. When we are honestly feeling or heart-centered it's a lot tougher to lie and a lot easier to discern whether something is for us.

For the past few days Guidance has gently nudged me with clarifying reminders about this work that I do with feelings. I was reminded that the 'feelings aloud' work isn't just about rattling off random feelings willy-nilly. Sometimes I forget to stress that Guidance has been emphasizing the honest voicing of feelings in any given now moment. This instantly narrows the possibility of drowning in a giant pool of yours (as well as others) intellectualized feelings and brings us quickly into lucidity and awareness of what's going on with our own Soul Body in this moment. What are you honestly feeling right now? Name it. Then do it again (lather, rinse, repeat). And then again. You may be surprised at what you discover and where it quickly leads you if you stick with it. [An example of a feeling dialogue is on my other blog, "What I Know by Heart"]

I have been guided that our bodies and feeling nature are in the present moment, and it is the honest expression of what we are conscious of right now that lands us into that lucid state of communion - self meeting the Greater Self.

Thus, the way to a conscious connection with Creator/Source is honesty. I was also shown this:

honesty = innocence
innocence = doorway to Source
doorway to Source = awareness of equality with Source
awareness of equality with Source = stepping into Oneness
Oneness = freedom from the lie that we were ever outside of this in the first place!

Phil. 2:5, (KJV) Let this mind [knowing] be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: 6 Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God . . . .

Honest feelings are grounded in the body and grounded to Earth. I know it goes against all that we are conditioned to believe, but what I have found is that first of all we actually can know Creator while on Earth. Contrary to what you were taught, this wasn't just a 'special' gift bestowed upon Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, and many other enlightened beings that walked the planet. This is a gift for ALL of humanity. Secondly, the way to know the Creator and in turn BE your True Self with all of your talents and abilities in this world, is through honest feelings, grounded in your body, and grounded in Earth. Seems we may not actually be utilizing our bodies and feeling nature to their highest calling because we haven't been fully here to discover it! We have been living primarily in the past or the future, which is an easy thing to do when you draw primarily from the intellect.

So the moral of the story is, we can't really think our way to honesty, innocence or to God. It's true, the intellect helps us to solve the many problems that arise while living within the more limited and separate view, but transformation and the resetting of our entire worldview from the idea of separation to the knowing of wholeness takes place in the heart.